Growing Up HurtS

When I was a child, I hope that I ll grow up faster and faster. At those days, I admire looking at those big sis ang big bro rushing for their activities.I always want to be a part of them... experience it.I always think that growing up is an enjoyable things to go on.
Things ll not goes on as what u think it would be....

Now, I got my "dream comes true". But, I discovered that there are not what I expected. Those beautiful, pretty, interesting proceess of growing up was just a imagination.Growing up is indeed a painfull challenge. We need to turn ourself from a little pampered child to a mature teenager.
I have been struggling to cope since I stepped into secondary school. I force myself to be strong, to be mature, to solve my problems and to be independent. There was really difficult!!! Sometimes when problems seem to swallow my patient, I just hope that I could cry like a baby and dont bother about all the troubles.I was overwhelmed by the tremendous changes in life.
Changes and changes.... Some was GOOD but some was SUFFERING
As the matter of fact,I can't stop the changes.... what I need to DO??? The only thing I have to do Is to acquire....Being a high school student, parents and teachers expect so high towards us.I am force to drag myself out of my comfort zone and stand by my own feet.

My friends and I was drifting apart.The new background, New subjects, new topics... combine vf the different experiences, different need, different feelings.... Is all different.
Everybody was busy for their own routine and activities. Though v are in the same school or even same class, there have no communication among us.Even a smple HI or Bye may not meet it. Somestimes I really confuse about what should I do and what I shouldn't.Should I follow the crowd and be part of them. Or maybe should I meet all their demands??? Should I tell out what I disagree of?? Should I show How I feel??? I know that it ll hurt my friends or make our friendship getting worse.... I wanted to have a happy atmosphere among all my friends. I hope... wish.. praying..... to maintain it!!!!! but then the fate seems to go to the opposite direction.

I wonder if I'm being too sensitive or petty, but it really hurts. I feel like I'm missing out a lot.
I tried to cover my face vf a mask.Eventually, I got use of it. But, the problems havent solved yet..... it just getting worse!!!! I dont like to show my feeling....even to my friends whom I really care about. I have no idea what make me so hard .... maybe the gap of time?? the misunderstanding?? the passive?? What was really wrong??

Bottom-line is, I would like to change the situation.... change the atmosphere of discomfort.
Is my true soul calling me?? Can I rely on my senses?
I wish I would find my true self and do well in the things I like!!!

Reuion

COoL.... Today, I am having a cool day!!!Finally, I got to contact vf my old classmates.... my buddies... There have been some time since v last met!! Its about 4 years v lost contact!! V just like a kite that fly apart without any holding of a string.....Yesterday, I received a letter from a old friend. That was really mesmerising... I was pretty surprise and happy to get the letter.
The letter make me flash back to..... ThOse day, I was a new student of the class. I was a quiet girl and take long time to mix around.After v had tag along for some time, v knew each other better.V share our up and down together. Still fresh in my mind, our class has known as the worst class in the school since v r trouble makers.The problem v have to face.... the drama v took part... the sonsg v sang....All that waS our only MemoRies!!! THey were sincere!!!
Although v dont have the chance to meet , v still able to contact!! HOpe to C u all soOn!!

**********FRIENDSHIP FOREVER************

Meeting my old schoolmate

COoL... Today, I am having a cool day!! I finally got my old classmate contact. There have been some time since we last met!!!I miss them a lot.... but v have not keep in touch since 4 years ogo.
Now... v have the chance to get contact again!!!That was really Mesmerising!!!
Yesterday, I received a letter from one of my primary school friend. I was pretty surprise to get the letter. But, the feeling of happy!!Happy to hear that she was doing well... She make me flash back to the memories v have at primary school.
At those day, I was a new student in that school.I was a quiet girl that take long time to mix around!! After some time v tag along together, v r good frenz that share the up and down!!!
THEY are sincere!!! those silly things v have done .... now have become our memories...

********************FRIENDSHIP FOREVER************************************

靠岸

你坐在我身边　可是表情很不自然　
聊的话很平凡却很悲伤　 　　　　　　
你说你不伤心　 　　　　　　
活着就是为了梦想　　 　　　　　　
甚至你更怀疑什么是地久天长　 　　　　　　
咖啡麻醉不了孤单　只会让心更疼　 　　　　　　
Oh都一样　　所谓梦想终究漂漂荡荡 　　　　　　
在迷乱的台北流浪　寻找一个幻想　 　　　　　　
突然很渴望　在我身上找到你要的靠岸 　　　　　　
这一刻当我们都感觉到彼此的心愿 　　　　　　
爱情早已经开始　思念早已经蔓延 　　　　　　
咖啡麻醉不了孤单　只会让夜更长　 　　　　　　
我也一样　　漂漂荡荡眼神召唤迷惘　 　　　　　　
在冷漠的台北流浪　找一个避风港 　　　　　　
突然很渴望　在你身上也找到我要的靠岸

CONFUSE

Recently, I was behaving very weird.I remain very quiet whether in school or in house. But, I just can't figure out why. WHY??What happen to me??
I ask myself am i the true self of mine??Suddenly, I found that I am lost!!I like to keep myself alone for no reason.I think this is time for me to find out who I am and I what I really want.
I wanted to share my feeling.... but I have no idea who to share with and where to start it.
Therefore, I would rather be alone when I am upset.Should I do what I want?? Or follow the others?? That the question I always ask!!Sometimes, I can be very confident!Somestimes,I would lose my confident entirely.What should I do?? What really block my way?? IS MYSELF!!!
SPM is coming soon... I am not really prepared for it! I am still taking my sweet time to wondering around.... that really make me feel more worry!!! As I really stress out, WHO can GIVE me the light?? the guidance??
BUt, as there is someone the world would be a better place to live in!!
Thank you my frenz!!! You really make me feel better when I speak out!!! I am so comfortable to interact vf u. Maybe that not a lot we can share together, but I really appreciate that.V are hardly speak to each other.... but the conversation that lasted for a few minute is enough for me to feel better!!! Maybe u dont know tat... as I never told u before!!I just wanna post my feeling of grateful!!! I like friendship without promises!!

Lastly, I hope I can find my own pretty world that I love !! And be the lord of the kingdom!!

~~~ WiSh All My FrEnz HAve A GOoD LifE ... StAY HAppY & ChEERful...~~~
PeaCe^^

Sorry, I Love U (Lyric)

歌曲: Sorry, I Love you 对不起,我爱你 (经典韩剧“对不起我爱你”主题曲,蔡淳佳深情献上)

你空出一双手，穿过黑夜握住我，两个人的手心里有一整片宽阔的天空 谁都没有开口，星星也忘了闪烁，有你陪着我就可以，走到天涯的尽头 那时侯，还记得那时侯，从手心传过来的温柔，如果说只能活这一天 曾经与你深深相爱，我已没有遗憾，我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远，走在这个适合拥抱的季节，爱在心里所以我不可怜 回忆温暖了想你的没一刻，紧紧抱着我说过的誓言，等待着我们说好的永远 梦见的两个人，在银白色的街头，留下的脚印一直，在我的心里往前走 从爱的第一秒，直到最后一分钟，我对我们之间没有任何后悔的理由 那时侯，还记得那时侯，从手心传过来的温柔，如果说只能活这一天 曾经与你深深相爱，我已没有遗憾，我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远，走在这个适合拥抱的季节，爱在心里所以我不可怜 回忆温暖了想你的没一刻，紧紧抱着我说过的誓言，等待着我们说好的永远 当走过的路流过的泪被落叶湮没，是你的温柔让我的心重新活过来 就算相爱的人无论如何正式要离开，别问未来怎么办，我只需要等待 那时侯，还记得那时侯，从手心传过来的温柔，如果说只能活这一天 曾经与你深深相爱，我已没有遗憾，我用回忆温暖了想你的每一刻 不让你离我太遥远，走在这个适合拥抱的季节，爱在心里所以我不可怜 回忆温暖了想你的每一刻，把最后的合照摆在窗前，想象着你也需要我一样 挺在倒数在整个世界，盯住被我说好的永远。

The moment we have

The moment we have together
The things we share
The feeling we gain
The path we walk together

There are no doubt
There are no uncertain
There are no gap

We have our road to be taken
We have to be apart
We have different role in the drama

But, I believe hopes in future
But, I believe friendship
But, I believe the memories that stay

Rain will be stop
Sun will be shine
Obstacle will be defeat
Luck will be right beside you

Friendship doesnt need any promises
Friendship doesnt need any regulation
Friendship comes from the soul
Friendship comes from the fate

Thanks for being such a wonderful friend……

OH MY GOD!!!

OMG!

Life have been so hectic, I had no enough sleep for my whole week. As a sleep lover, there would be a big torture for me. Always hope that holiday approach as fast as possible!!! Hate the school life a lot… but force to make myself in it!! Actually, that was really tiring… … To be frank, while I was busy for my society activities and homework, sometimes I feel like giving up!! However, I still force myself to keep going in the upstream and not falling downward. As the president of the SPBT board, make my responsibility even heavier. I have to plan all the work! Although some said that president is to give order and be a coordinator. As the matter of fact, I have to involve myself in all the activities and need to pay attention to the members responds. That was really tough when getting it started. All the false that my members did, will related to me too…. But, what can I do??? I have to face it positively, and that's what we call “the process of growing up”. School works make me feel breathless. There will not be an end for my homework! It will be getting heavier and heavier only!As this year I ll be sitting for my SPM exam,I am attending tuituion in order to improve my grade and get more study skills. I am rushing all the way to meet my tuition timetable. Although there was quite tiring but I learnt a lot from there!!!Exam!! test!! Homework!! The feeling of fear take all over my mind! HELPLESS!!!! who can help me???
I knew there is no one except mySELF!! I have to TAKE THE CHALLENGE!